in the darkness

feeling overwhelmed by sudden changes not initiated by me, i find solace in the ability to write. when surrounded by all things out of control and out of my control, i seek answers that no one can provide; i ask questions that may not be fathomed or understood; ultimately, i want a deeper meaning of wisdom, vitality, and livelihood.
a mood sat on me once i cleared my thoughts from today. once empty-headed, i began to write:
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escape into the darkness
let it consume you like deepest ocean.
run away to the darkness
let it excite you like an epiphany.
confide in the darkness
let it heal you like a shaman.
even hide in the darkness
let it surround you like the omnipresent.
the most beautiful thing about the darkness
is that you can be free in the darkness.
you can spin around in circles until you're dizzy
roll around on the floor
color on the walls you can't see.
there are no shadows in the darkness
no facades.
you are who you are
and i am who i am
in the darkness.
naked, unashamed...
because you can't see me
and i can't see you.
here with all my flaws i can tell you the truth
hiding my face in plain view
in the darkness.
no color, no race
no height, no shape
no ethnicity, no weight
in the darkness.
i can speak freely in the darkness
no need to feel apprehensive or despondent
in the darkness.
prideful, lustful, scarred
emotional, arrested, charred
pensive, tainted, and marred
in the darkness.
feeling lost in the darkness
and somehow found
because i'm not being judged for what is external
but rather appreciated for what is internal
in the darkness.
no need to hide or be shy in the darkness
discover you can fly in the darkness
nocturnality creates unseen symmetry
in the darkness.
passion rises in the darkness and
prejudice dies in the darkness.
the weakest part of me can be strong in the darkness...
and the strongest part can rest peacefully
in the darkness.
true beauty is revealed in the darkness.
with eyes wide open yet still unable to see in the darkness...
i welcome the darkness.
because...
i don't have to see me
in the darkness.

(c) ronetta cheryll